A year ago tomorrow, we were moving into this house. Funny, we still refer to it as our "new house". I wonder how long that will last. The boys still talk fondly about our "old house" and ask to drive by there anytime we're in the neighborhood. When I think back to a year ago, I marvel at all of the blessings God has given us. I LOVE our home. I love making it a home for our family. We've done a lot (new furniture, painting, etc.), but of course, there's still a lot we want to do. We have made new friends in our neighborhood and I get such joy in my heart when all of the kids on our street are in our backyard!
In celebration (ha, ha) of our one year house birthday, I finally painted the boys' bathroom. Nana D. bought them the "Peek a Boo" monkeys shower curtain and the rug, so we went with a light blue for the walls. When Nana saw the color swatch for the paint, she said, "That's going to be really bright!" Well, it is bright and it's definitely not a color you'd see in the Highland Park Tour of Homes, but the boys love it and that's all that matters. Jonah had fun "helping". I painted the boys names just for fun and they begged me to leave them that way. I draw the line there. Happy Birthday House!
So, with the whole idea of adopting our baby girl from Haiti, I have asked God to just make it crystal clear. I want a huge billboard with flashing lights. I don't want to miss it. The "Adoption Stories" show I blogged about earlier, had another Haitian adoption this week from the SAME orphanage---GLA. Then, last night, I was reading a story in my "Today's Christian Woman" (very good mag, by the way!) magazine and there was a mention of Haiti in it.
THEN, tonight, I had a meeting at the boys' school and a friend sat down next to me and proceeded to tell me all about her friend going to HAITI on a mission trip!
Okay, God.....what are you doing?
Robby and I have felt for a long time that our daughter, Gracie, would be from Africa. Even after we got home from our mission trip to Ethiopia, we felt confirmed that she would be from Ethiopia.
Now....God has placed a new idea in our path and we are praying for discernment. On Friday, I watched an episode of "Adoption Story" on TLC. I love this show and record it every now and then. There were actually 2 episodes on the Tivo and both episodes spotlighted the same orphanage in Haiti. The orphanage is run by an American missionary couple. They take in newborns (and older children), feed them American food, and teach them English to transition them to their forever families in America. The orphanage is called God's Littlest Angels. As I watched these precious children, I just cried over their loneliness and wondered if God was leading us to Haiti.
That night, I asked Robby, "So what do you think about Haiti?" He was worried for a minute that I meant going there on a mission trip. I explained to him about the 2 shows I had seen and we watched them together that night. This is another one of those times when living with a history teacher is helpful because he explained to me the economy and culture in Haiti. The people there live in utter poverty with basically no hope for the future. Very often, mothers have their babies and after they are unable to nurse any longer, give the children up because they cannot feed them. This is such a sad, but selfless act of love.
The statistic the orphanage director quoted that kept resonating in my head all day is that 50% of Haitian children die before the age of 5. Later, I thought about Luke's little pre-k class which consists of 19 four year olds. In Haiti, by the end of this year, 10 of those kids would be dead (I know that's morbid to think about Luke's class, but it really hit home with me). Isn't that shocking and just so heartbreaking?
So....all of this to say, we are praying for discernment. We have always known that our Gracie would have brown skin. We have felt called to Africa for a while. Haitians are former Africans, so in a way, she would still be from Africa. A question I'm wrestling with is, "Is it wrong to want to adopt from Haiti because the people there are so much more destitute than what we experienced in Africa?"
We have already researched Haiti through the God's LIttlest Angels website and if you go there, you will see...they make it look so easy. Haiti is very close to us and also their adoptions are very affordable. Please pray for us. I always ask God to just make his will so clear to us that we know without a doubt what He has planned. I want a billboard with flashing lights!
I found this quote today and I just love how it speaks to my heart. So many ask, "Why adopt? There are so many orphans. You can't save them all."
I always think, but, I can save one. And that is what we plan to do. God has called us all to do something. That something is different for everyone. I pray you listen to His voice and go for it!
"I am only one, but still I am one. I cannot do everything, but still I can do something. I will not refuse to do the something I can do.”--Helen Keller
